Heart Healing

When Dreams Are Deferred

When Dreams Are Deferred

Let’s talk about being an artist and dealing with compromise. As a person of faith endeavoring a career in the entertainment industry I’m often asked the following questions (or some variation thereof): “So… how’s your walk with God?”“Isn’t it hard to be a believer in a place like Hollywood?”“Have you compromised your… ‘integrity’?” I get it. These questions usually come…

#NoFilter

#NoFilter

It’s so easy to be someone else. With the right selfie and a push of a button you can be whatever you want… or what you think everyone else wants. What’s difficult is not losing who you were made to be. I remember some nights after I’d get home from work I’d throw my blazer, or dress, on top of…

The Approval of The “Theys”

The Approval of The “Theys”

I believe we’ve all done it. Explained why you were too afraid to pursue your dreams because “they” wouldn’t think you are smart enough, pretty enough, accomplished enough, edgy enough to succeed. Or, for us Christians, we do the “they” will question my salvation, motives, throw in the “did God say you can do that…,” and we take all of…

Where’s Your Focus?

Where’s Your Focus?

I’ve been struggling all month on what to write –what topic do people wanna hear about that I’m good or qualified in to share? The one thing I can really say I’m qualified to share about is fear of failure. For those of you who can relate, you know exactly what this feels like, for those of you who can’t…

New Memories for Tainted Places

New Memories for Tainted Places

There are places in Austin, cities in Texas, that I avoid like the plague because they remind me of an event or person that hurt me. Not “step on my toe” hurt, but “created a deep wound that caused me to question my worth as a person” hurt. These places were no-go’s for me because the memories they drudged up…

The Shame Game

The Shame Game

“Shame is the inner experience of being “not wanted.” It is feeling worthless, rejected, cast-out. Guilt is believing that one has done something bad; shame is believing that one is bad. Shame is believing that one is not loved because one is not lovable.” Dr. Robert D. Caldwell WHOA. This quote given by a Dr. Robert D. Caldwell stung like…

Functional Depression

Functional Depression

There’s a dark place in depression that allows you to be functional but only outside of your home. You can engage people, smile, work, hold conversations but collapse when you get home. Before I met my husband, I was in a serious relationship headed towards marriage with someone else. I was 21, he was 22. We had our entire lives…

My Hips Don’t Lie.

My Hips Don’t Lie.

Better not eat those donuts if you want to lose those hips. That’s what the older lady said to me as she scanned my receipt at Sam’s Club. I blurted our “I don’t need to lose my hips, thanks!” and walked away shaken by her pointed comment. I couldn’t believe she’d said that. As I walked to my car with…

#Violated

#Violated

There’s an innocence and feeling of safety that’s lost when someone takes it upon themselves to touch or interact with you in a sexual manner when it’s not consensual. You see the world, see men, very differently. Their strength becomes your enemy and their covering perceived as controlling. I was a pre-teen out with two girlfriends and we were hanging…

Smile.

Smile.

My brother sent me this old picture last year and I’ve yet to be able to stop thinking about it. It’s your typical awkward, but cute, middle school photo that most of us enjoy and concurrently, laugh at. This photo brought on a different set of emotions for me. At the time, I was dating the guy of my dreams—cute…